We miss out on life because we get tied up in work, school, and being busy to avoid life. I had this epiphany while sitting at Borders books on my lunch break while studying for my exam, calling my insurance agent and checking my blackberry to see how far behind I was getting at work from actually taking a lunch break.
I got off my phone and noticed a group of 4-5 elderly ladies drinking coffee and showing their crochet pillows to each other that they were making for various people for Christmas. I looked at them in envy. They have passed the season of life of working and schooling. They are not too busy to avoid life. In pondering this for a minute, I started writing this:
We are scared of our own thoughts- the places and things we will think about and maybe have to deal with. We are scared to face the reality of what life really is and what has happened to us in that life. The trials and hopes and fears and joys and happiness and love and all the other emotions we feel. We are scared to reflect when we stop for the fear that these thoughts and reality might horrify us. What if the things we hope for don't happen? What if we waste of lives being busy and miss out on loving others that were placed in our path? What if what we are scared of is our own selves and the potential we do not live up to? What is we stop and reflect on what we are accomplishing in life? What if we take a little bit of time each day to stop and think and be alone with our thoughts? We will see the world in a different perspective. The world we live in is cruel but maybe not as cruel as I imagined. The magnitude of my fears and thoughts are nothing compared to the magnitude of the love Christ has for us. It is so easy for me to forget that. It is so easy for me to not realize how broken I am. I have recently begun realizing the depth of my brokenness and that I cannot on my own. These are just some of my random thoughts that I had while procrastinating studying... oh life!
